God is Still In Control

Being the “Left Brained” individual that I am…I have a tendency to look for reason, meaning, and order in the midst of every situation, even in the most chaotic. Logic causes me to seek out the consistency, soundness, and completeness of occurences in my life and in the world around me.

In my childhood, I was the kid who frequently asked , “WHY?”, only sometimes to receive a familiar response from my mother, “Because I said so.”  Today, I pose the same question and other similar questions. At times to friends, some of whom take my questioning to be sacastic and/or insincere, which is probably a reflection of how people perceive my willingness to hear/receive the response. And at other times, but not as frequently to God.

I am feeling Paul tough when in II Corinthians 12, he said he pleaded with the Lord 3 times to keep him from exalting himself or becoming conceited by what God has given and revealed to him. And God gives him a response that resonates with me so so so so much right now, II Corinthians 12:9, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Prompting me to further realize that in my most confused, disorientated state God’s strength is perfect. He remains in control, when all of the things around us seem to be out of control. By this I am humbled.

LoveYaMeanIt!

Sleep Deprived

Nothing Philosophical or Mystical to talk about today. I am just so so so so so SLEEPY! I was up just doing “stuff”.  I had to wake up at the crack of dawn to get my nephew to school early for a presentation that he is working on….I would say that there isn’t enough time in a day, but that would be saying God didn’t know what he was doing by giving 24 hours. What I will say is that I do not have enough free time to do some things that need to be done. I am anxiously anticipating my lunch break, half of which will be occupied by walking and the other half by sleep. WHEW! Need that in my life…

A Wise Woman Buildeth Her House…

Today is a day set aside to recognize the hardest working women period, Mothers. It is that funny I find myself in the position of  being a parent to my nephew. People often ask, “why did you make that decision? You were single and carefree.” Typically, I am a decision maker that likes to analyze, evaluate the analysis, and then analyze the evaluation. However, taking responsibility for my nephew was a decision that took no time to make. God has blessed me. Of course, there are things that I still desire that I may not have. For the most part, I do not want for anything. Attributed to the fact that God is a supplier of need. Being this as it may, I assumed the responsibility for changing the course of my nephew’s life with the help of God based on what God has given me. He has excelled in all aspects of his life since he made the transition. I thank God for being a vessel.

I am also appreciative for my Mother. A praying woman of God . Who despite adveresity and shortcomings, kept me in the House of God and taught me the fear of the Lord. The greatest thing a parent can sow into their childrens life is the fear and knowledge of God. It is this foundation that has seen me to this point. I am eternally grateful for her.

As I mature in God and in life and eventually become married and bear my own children…I pray more and more for the wisdom and understanding to be a prototype of the woman spoken of in Proverbs 14:1.

LoveYaMeanIt!

It’s Been Long Time Coming…And I Know Change Has Come

So…….*Heavy Sigh*

I know it has been forever, but your girl has been under construction. Man, has God changed some things in my life. When you ask God for spiritual things I can assure you that he does not withhold. I have asked God on several occasions with sincerity for patience. Often when I asked for patience, it was geared toward dealing with other people. However, he threw a curve ball and has given me some tests that required me to patiently wait on him. I believe that I am successfully passing the tests, as I am facing some challenges that would in another frame of mind cause me to buckle. The reality is… I am a contender. I have never been a person that runs from adversity. I’d rather confront it and grow from it.

I have had some people that have entered and exited my life that have reminded  me that not everyone can appreciate and/or handle the value of who God has formed me to be. On the other hand,  I am also reminded of the people who can and do appreciate me as they are constants in my life. Proverbs 17:17, “A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.” God has given me one of the best gifts that a person can ask for, True Friendship, which in my opinion is in some aspects is more rare than finding companionship. My pastor gave me some crucial words of wisdom recently that I will never forget, “When you have the anointing on your life, you have got to guard it.” This prompted me to evaluate some ways in which I had let my guard down. After the evaluation, it was clear to me where adjustments needed to be made. Thank God for Godly counsel!

Overall, I am on a mission to recover all!

LoveYaMeanIt! Stay Tuned…

P.S. I thought I would share this one with you….Preach It, Bishop G.E. Patterson!